I don’t know about you, but I seem to always have the tendency to underestimate all that God is doing in and around me. I have a tendency to get caught up in myself, mostly naval gazing, wishing I was more faithful, more pure, more on top of things. Consistently feeling not good enough for my Father in heaven who loves me more than I could ever fully comprehend.
A few weeks ago, at the house of prayer, we took some time to dive deeper into Psalm 139. Again, it’s amazing what you’ll find when you look at the Hebrew in the context of what the Scripture is actually saying! My friend Janet brought to light some things that really impacted my heart.
“O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
You have hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.” •Psalm 139:1-6•
Where it says “You have hedged me”, it means “to bind, to confine, to besiege”. Besiege, in the dictionary, means “to surround with armed forces in order to capture it or force its surrender”. I saw myself, I saw all of us, confined within the palms of His hands. He searches me and knows me. He knows everything all together, and yet He draws near, pressing in all around me.
His holy flames of love engulf me every day and night, the heat and the pressure of His hands changing my fragile carbon substance into the purest, strongest, most beautiful substance on the earth.
Such knowledge is to wonderful for me! I want to be besieged by my Father in heaven. Though I may never be holy and blameless in my own eyes, this is how God sees me. He doesn’t see my black spots and imperfections. He see a flawless diamond in His hand.
Surrender opens wide the door to repentance. Repentance produces humility which is the key to unlocking prison doors as well as the Kingdom of Heaven on earth. Even now, I can see His grace taking me over, enabling me to walk in more obedience and love. Our God leads us with kindness and grace, and surely, mercy and goodness follow us all of the days of our lives.
One more revelation the Lord gave me was during another worship devotional at the house of prayer. I had a vision of an eagle, flying full force directly into a storm. There was lightening, thunder, rain, massive wind and clouds. The eagle hit the storm and caught the wind. It then flew straight up, broke through the clouds, and proceeded to fly above the storm, resting its wings on the wind.
There is a place where eagles fly above the storm
The sky is blue, the air is fresh, and the sun is warm
They can see for miles and miles
Resting on the wind all the while
Fly into the storm
Catch the wind and soar
Break through the clouds
Higher and higher now
Cast all your cares upon Me
Now is the time to fly… •Michele Urlick•
We all know Isaiah 40:31…”Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles…” Did you know that word “wait” in Hebrew means to bind together, to expect, to be patient and tarry?
In the waiting, in the surrender, we are bound together with the Lord, almost like a rope. He surrounds us. He hedges us in, removing all that is not of Him, making us lighter and stronger. It’s not anything we do that makes this happen. It’s all Him. Another thing said to me is that He doesn’t care what sin I’ve committed or how many times I’ve failed. All He cares about is that I KEEP COMING BACK TO HIM IN SURRENDER and the sin and failures fall into the sea of forgetfulness. You and I are ALWAYS welcomed back into the arms of Love. Because of this truth, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.
JOY comes when I align myself with God’s Word and His heart, and the JOY of the Lord IS my strength!
“Therefore….let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.” •Hebrews 12:1-2•